I don't like limbo.

no...not this kind of limbo. but I wouldn't particularly like this either

I've been in this awful state of limbo for the past 3 weeks. Since the only two people who currently read this already know everything (hello Mommy and Lindsey!), I'm just going to vent.

So, we've been trying to get pregnant the past few months. I'm in no rush, just when it happens it happens. I figured it would take a while anyway since I just quit birth control in April. 

Fast forward to now - I'm 15 days late and extremely frustrated. I've been using those irritating pee sticks almost daily but am consistently getting negatives...with the exception of one very, very faint positive which was then followed by a negative. Go figure.

I don't particularly care if I'm pregnant or not (ok, so I care, a lot actually, but there's always plenty more months if this isn't it), I just want something, anything to happen. I've been walking around for the past 3 weeks with a tampon stuffed in my bra so I don't have one of those "crap. I left my purse in the other room" moments. But lucky/unlucky for me, I haven't had a chance to use it so now it's all torn and smooshed and probably wouldn't do a whole lot of good. So I have since thrown it away and am just praying for a positive. 

AND to make things worse...I called my doctor to see if they would do a blood test to find out for sure and they (long story short) said no. Boo. AND my friend who is currently a month late got an appointment and it turned out negative. So she's crushed and I'm sad and I'm going to be a little upset if I'm pregnant and she's not, but then again I'll be upset if I'm not pregnant, so, I really just can't win. Except for the fact that I'll have a baby on the way, which I think is definitely a win! 

buying this the day I get my 2 pink lines - let's save for baby's college (or wedding) fund!

So that's that. I'm not pregnant but I'm not not pregnant. Limbo sucks.